Hello my Darling Mom xx Oh how i am missing you so much. I really wish you was here to sort out things its been horrible i have no idea why dad done what he done to me but i hope now hes up with you.. you can ask him as i have only ever tried to do my best for him and always for you. he has played a very sick joke on me and i will never forgive him and martin for what they have put me through the past few yrs since you left us. I really have no idea why but i do hope that you didnt feel that way towards me i really hope that you will come and let me know as i have had many doubts about it. Things are still not right with martin and myself and i will never trust him again either but i dont think he belives how hard i tried with dad and how many time he made excuses for me not to see him. I am always thinking about you and missing you so much i love you so much mom and i wish you was still hear with us all we all love you loads. If you are looking down upon us you will see how well joey is theses days he loves you to. You take care now darling i will write to you again soon until then sleep well and come and see me i would really love that .. all my love forever Shirley xxxxxxxxxx